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Jack Toh Thiam Jade17 going 18 Schooling in Republic Poly Leo 02/08/93 Jacktoh_93@hotmail.com Wishes
-Last Long With Carissa :D-Elder Brother To Be Successful In Career And Last Long With Grace -Second Brother To Be Successful -Change My Temper -Family To Be Peaceful -Ah Ma Will Lead A Good Life -People Around Me To Be Happy -Be More Sensible -Get To Know True Friends Tagboard
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Friday, August 31, 2007
Yawns... hahas still haven slp yet so decided to post...hmm recently nth much happen la... and tml... i mean later... our school wil be having cross country... dun feel like running... -.- aiya cuz i weak le... stamina+speed dropped like siao... run a bit tired... more like aqua now... although i m 1 last time... zzz... today is also teacher's day well wishing all teachers a very happy teacher's day... haix... really do hope it rain later... zzz... going back to primary school after cross country... wonder who will be back... well... you beared to say those things to me... i cant do anything... i can only respect ur decision... seriously alot ppl told me tis... 'jack stead dao jiang xin ku, stead lai zuo she me?' i always tink after ppl tell me tt... i always replied... 'bu dong la... bu yao guan la...' but actually... i m still in tis relationship wif u cuz... i still love u... if u really wan to meet up wif tt guy or gif him a chance... i cant do anything... u can say watever u wan now... to you... i guess... i m already not tt important as i used to be... in ur heart... and... i brought u more of sadness den happiness... i really dunno wat will happen... jus afraid i will become an useless ah beng sooner or later... jus hope tt... if u find tis relationship... useless... jus... tell me... straight in my fucking bloody face... and i promise... i won ever... appear in ur life... anymore... i m jus writing hw i feel right here... i m not blaming u... i m jus blaming myself.... for being such a useless boyfren all tis while... sorry to haf wasted ur time... and ur care... tink... u chose the wrong person... and made the wrong choice... i hurt u more den i love u... but the truth is... i really love u... more den i love myself... Wednesday, August 22, 2007
Tired... Jus reached home not long ago from camp...Lets talk bout camp n happy things 1st.... Hmm... 1st day did group introduction all tis and absailing... quite boring la but we endured it... 2nd day was much much better as we had morning exercise... -.- did sth called buddha clap and it was hard lor... after tt we had breakfast den go to climb high elements... after tt was lunch den we went for kayaking! woo it was so fun lor haha really enjoyed myself during kayaking den went for nature rumble... the pool was so full of tadpole and we played simon says in the pool... -.- we sat down den lied down in the pool... sian very dirty but fun.... haha den the tadpoles... so lame there was so many of them swimming to my chest area... -.-! after tt we walked out and went to wash up and prepared for campfire performance... campfire was quite fun and very emo la... zzz... all talk till so sad still play sad songs... haha... the sky was very nice in the night... there were many stars and they were bright too... hw i hope u were by my side by tt time... but i really dunno wat i did wrong to make u treat me like tis... u totally ignored me during the camp even though i tried to talk to u... u jus walked off... i apologized to u that 2 nights but u didnt bother... when i heard from dijon tt you said to him we both broke up already... i was so sad tt... i cant do anything... we both haven break but... why did u tell it to him URSELF TT WE BROKE UP! DO YOU REALLY HATE ME SO MUCH TT U CANT WISH TO GET AWAY FROM ME? IF TTS THE CASE JUS TELL ME! DEN I WON HAF TO BE SO HURT AND DISAPPOINTED! Saturday, August 18, 2007
hmm... nth to post so jus come here crap lor haha...next monday going for camp le 3 days 2 night... wonder wat fun will we haf... or maybe wat troubles we will haf... come back from camp den post ba... BYES! Sunday, August 12, 2007
dunno y i jus cant slp... after reading ur post... ur tags... i posted tt cuz i wan u to care...i did not mean to blame u or say its ur fault... if u tink my words hurt you wat bout urs...i seriously m not in the mood to talk or do anything now... i nid u... i really nid u... i admit i m immature n childish... i won ever understand you... i jus noe i m a burden to you right now... seriously... if you wish me to FUCK OFF,DIE or BREAK UP wif me... i won say no tis time... ur actions n everything u do towards me... plus you r the 1 suffering now... not me... i m jus a FUCKING BASTARD WHO ENJOYS PLAYING LAN WIF HIS FRENZ AND ACCOMPANYING FRENZ RATHER DEN YOU WHO IS MY GIRLFRIEND! AND GAMES R MORE IMPORTANT DEN ANYTHING IN MY LIFE YOU R NOT IMPORTANT! IF YOU TINK TT WAY DEN LET IT BE! I WILL BLOODY HELL FUCK OFF FROM UR SIGHT N UR LIFE! Saturday, August 11, 2007
well... really not in the mood to do anything tis few days...all started on 6th of august... which was monday... tt day i ponned school n stayed at home to slp... my mum was angry and took out my com's maiin switch wire... i was very fucked up den but... nvm... i continue slping till 7plus... i woke up and bath n ate.. after tt went to tell my mum to return the wire to me... but she didnt wan to so i was very angry and started kicking the chair n slamming my room door... den after tt quarrelled wif her as well as my grandparents... well i am an unfillial child i muz say... from monday till now i had been having problems sleeping... and mr liew spoke to veronica... and wanted her to talk to me... i tried to change but in the end we still quarrelled... i was damn fucked up tis few days... totally no mood at all... i had to like act happy to avoid unnecessary attention... all i wanted is her to care but... haix... maybe i dun deserve her care n concern at all.... quarrelled on 8th after NDP celebration... i returned home at 10 plus... after tt bath n eat den dun feel like staying at home... so i decided to go to my primary school fren hse to stay... i went there to play com n made myself very tired till i cannot stand it only den i can slp... den the next morning i rushed home and den went out wif jarrold,kk,jeydee n eugene... wanted go marina bay see fireworks but in the end we went to kbox... den on mrt we caught a pervert taking pictures of 2 gals... after tt i went to my primary sch fren hse to stay again... its jus tt... the feeling of home to me now is different... i actually wanted to change n study... but all tis tt haf happened plus watever i do i wanted n wish for u to care... but u dun seem to bother... maybe its my fault... i wasn't a good boyfren after all... i only returned home at 8plus today... and i cant slp again... so decided to play dota wif frenz... not in a good form to play... how i wish i can be drunk or get into a coma... life is really very miserable to me now... i dun feel like talking much to my mother anymore... i need u by my side now but u really dun seem to care... those words u said on wednesday really hurt me alot... up till now... its been whole 2 yrs n 4 mths... y... y do u still doubt my love for u... everything i haf done every wounds n scar i had... its all cuz of you... i dun tink you would trust me anymore... tis few days wifout you... it really sucks... i jus wish to say... if you dun love me anymore pls tell me straight... i dun wish to be a burden to you... i really really do love you... believe it or not... i leave it to you... |
